I am a Robot

Every day, I wake up at the same time. I walk the dog, fill the wood furnace, shower, and go to work. I sit at my desk for 8 1/2 hours and take the same exact call 60 times in a row. I work until 9:00pm  drive 45 minutes home, walk the dog, fill the wood furnace, and go to bed.

This is my life.

I work, I sleep, I work, I sleep.

Some people have suggested what they believe to be a simple fix. "Why don't you just wake up earlier and do something you enjoy." "Get a hobby or something."
Easier said than done. I actually do have a couple hobbies. I'm just too drained from work to do anything when I get home other than sit in bed, drink some tea, jot down a few of my thoughts here, and then go to sleep.
I do not wake up early, and the reason for this is because I'm 21. Still practically a teenager, I haven't become a morning person yet. Considering the fact that I don't get home from work until 10 or 10:30 makes me feel like it's okay to sleep until 10 the next morning.

I wouldn't mind my routine as much if my work day weren't so repetitive.
You know when you call in to your insurance company because your premium increased, and you're upset about it, and all you want to do is yell at someone (it's okay to admit it. We've all felt this way)
I'm the person on the other line who takes the blame, apologizes for something I have no control over, and then does the best I can to save you money . But what you don't know, is that as soon as I hang up the phone with you, another call comes in, and I start the whole process over again.

This is why I am a robot. I say the same sentences over and over like I'm programmed to respond with only select phrases.

I need a job with projects. I need to be able to have a project that I can work on, think about, be creative with, and then when it's over, I can start a new project.

This is why I need to be a wedding planner. One wedding after another, but each is different, and each allows me to be creative and spend time working on something that is going to make someone's day beautiful.

Is it possible to have a mid-life crisis this young?

I am turning 21 in approximately 12 days, though I might as well be 30.

This is me.

My name is Siobhan (pronounced Shavon for those who don’t know Gaelic) I’m a licensed insurance agent for one of the top insurance companies in the country. I work full time to support myself, my full-time student roommate, a slightly brain-damaged dog, and an unknowingly pregnant cat that we adopted (Ms. preggers soon became 1 momma cat and 5 adorable babies.)

2 of the 5

We’re a unique family.

With my 21^st birthday approaching, I've realized how very young I really am.

People at work are constantly surprised when they find out that I’m younger than 25. The youngest of my co-workers is 28. Now that 7 or 8 years may seem like nothing to some but let me put it in to perspective.

These people graduated from high school in 2002 or earlier. At that time, I was in 5^th grade.

When they were graduating college, I was in my very first year of high school.

When I graduated from high school in 2009, they were celebrating 5^th and 6^th year wedding anniversaries, and the 1^st birthdays of their second child.

One year ago, I was still technically a teenager.

30 years of age is definitely not old, but I’m still almost 10 years away from that. It’s too soon for me to be settling into a career. Especially one as boring as insurance (no offence to the insurance enthusiasts out there)

So I've decided to change my life. If I’m going to be 30 years old, it’s going to be a 30 that I’m happy with. I’m done settling.

So with the start of the new year, comes the start of a new adventure for me. I’d love to tell you that I’m going to travel, or go back to school, or do something exciting, but unfortunately for me I have bills to pay, and no money for much else.

Instead I’m going to focus on creating a life for myself that will make me happy. Throughout this blog, I'm going to post about my road to happiness, beautiful thoughts, and inspirations, and hopefully one day very soon I will be living a beautiful, happy life.